Tuesday, December 21, 2010

This place.

This weather has had a perfect feel, and the colors have started to bloom. I walk around with a new stride. I’ve never felt so fitted for just moving to a new place. As I walk through the streets I begin to look back on the times that got me here, the times I wanted to give up, wanted to fade away, wanted to leave the puzzle unfinished, but something in me kept pushing me through to the next moment. Although I am here, this isn’t my final destination, but where I am now has taken time. This place has taken sacrifice and prayer. This place has taken all my energy and heart, my passion and motivation. This place did not come easy. This place I find myself in took many of my tears and millions of my moments. It took patience and perseverance to reach it, with friends in the foundation of pillars holding me up to reach my place. Good things never come easy. I chose not to get lost in the process. When things looked impossible, boring, or unmotivating, my inner purpose lead me to believe something was up ahead.
I have such a rich taste of what it feels like to fully be alive living in this place. It was hard not get distracted by wildflowers and secret doorways along the way. Some steps I chose to take left me with heartache but it has only added to the richness of the purpose. It is not time to throw down the handle, but pick up the reign in the place I now stand.
And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint.
Galatians 6:9

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

The Heart Trusts.

I trust him the way I chose to trust my Dad when he spoke to me as a little girl. If he told me I could be a fairy, I became a fairy, If he told me we were going to the carnival, we were going to go to the carnival, and if he told me "Leah, we are going to fly to the moon" then we were going to fly to the moon. Nothing was impossible.

"... I trust him. I trust that he will inspire the one who matches my heart to find me. That something within him, no matter where he is, no matter how far apart or close we are, no matter our family history or where we grew into who we are now, no matter how different we may be or look from one another, that he will pursue me. He will find me because he trusts God just as much as I do. He trusts and hopes for that moment when his heart hears my name and the moment will come when he and I will finally be, us three. He trusts that his heart will one day find me because he is looking through the one who knows himself more than he does. The one who knows the best for him. He will find me through his creator, and I will wait in hope knowing and trusting that my dad wants what’s best for me.

It’s such a mystery"

photo by Tim Walker

Saturday, December 11, 2010

The heart of a child

The heart of a child..

Innocence of a

The faith of
a child.

The belief in
unseen, seen
by a child.

The other day while babysitting I noticed the way children react to things that are evil. A cartoon came on with an evil looking character, and the child seemed appalled and started to move away from the screen as if she didn't want to look at it anymore. This made me realize how innocent we are coming into this world.

Innocent: free from moral wrong, not corrupted.

As children we enjoy innocent things, not things that are scary. It is over time that we become more immune to the things of this world and the innocents beings to slip away.

This child's reaction awakened me to the pure form of innocents I once withheld, and the way which we were created.

There is something so sweet about a childlike spirit. The way they trust you, and the way they will believe in or anything you say, and the way they are so pure and innocent. This is how I believe God is calling us to be. To trust him and to believe the things he says with all our heart without any walls or guards, to find our innocence in him who is the one who created us with it from the begining. I want the heart of a child.
“Field of Dreams”
Vogue, November 2008
photographer: Mario Testino
Natalia Vodianova

Monday, November 29, 2010

My Love.

During the day I find my heart burning to love someone. The intimate kind of love, a very deep and personal kind of love. I love to love you. It’s unlike any other Love. A melody kind of a Love, a beautiful song. This sweet lullaby that puts me to sleep kind of a Love. The smell of peace kind of a Love, you sweep me off my feet type of Love. Without words spoken kind of a Love. You make my heart jump, my soul burst, my colors explode, my joy dance, my spirit sing, my lips speak, my pulse flow. My Love, I love the way you love me.


Sunday, November 21, 2010

Made in Secret

Made in Secret*
A treasure chest. Buried deep within the depths of the sea. You find this chest. You try to open it. When you do, you discover... nothing.
This is what we can look like if we are NOT fully aliv
e in him.

No one knows all that they withhold UNTIL they are fully alive in God.
"I was made in secret" Psalms 138:11.

Not even you yourself knows what lies inside the depths of the soul that's been put inside you.
You have no idea what you are capable of, Do you kn
ow what lies inside of you?

-He made you in secret, no one, not even you were there during the process of his creation concerning you.

Once you are living and thriving in the one who has created you, it is till then that that treasure which was once empty may come alive and the secrets that live inside of you are revealed for his Glory.
This is when your passions and desires will be fulfilled.
"He made you in secret" - this means He obviously knows you more than you know yourself.

We really have no idea who we are, Until we find him.

Photo by: Rosie Hardy

Monday, November 15, 2010

Let him facilitate your season.

Let him facilitate your season.
I have learned that God loves to speak to me through words,which is the same way I best communicate with him, through the words that I write to him. Others communicate through worship,talking, dancing, ect. He'll drop a word in my brain and then i'll look it up to find it very helpful concerning my day or circumstance. You have a personal communication with God whether you recognize it or not; I just find it so interesting that He cares that much to have a different way of communication which best suits us individually.
is the word which was dropped in my mind the other day that I would love to share with you.
-To make an action or process easy or easier.
-To assist the progress of (a person).

Let him [Facilitate, alleviate, ease, help] the season which you are breathing in that he has brought you to.



Sunday, November 7, 2010

Patient Love.

Patient Love. It has been a constant battle to find myself satisfied in my single status. I would lie to you if I told you I usually don't go a day without thinking about being with someone. I also would lie to you if I didn't tell you how often I think about why others who have impressed a season of my life didn't work out. ..And I know the answers, but I don't like to believe them in the moments I find myself board. I fear that my biggest regret in life would to be to settle for someone who isn't mine. I refuse. - I would often cry to God and tell him I would rather live the rest of my life all alone than to spend the rest of my life with someone who doesn't belong to me..... just because I got BORED with the season of being single God has me resting in! I am speaking to myself here. I want to be satisfied in this Season- I want this season to bloom beautiful flowers, and luscious fruit with marvelous colors. This season is in his plan, and I REFUSE to settle for anything less than his plan. For the vision is yet for an appointed time and it hastens to the end [fulfillment]; it will not deceive or disappoint. Though it tarry, wait [earnestly] for it, because it will surely come; it will not be behindhand on its appointed day. Habakkuk 2:3I serve a beautiful God. Who Loves me. Who cares about My concerns. Who knows my thoughts. Who has the answers.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Freedom. Insecurities withhold you from freedom which you have already been given. You walk on the stage, the lights stare you down and you begin to notice everyones attention is on you. In an instant you feel fear grip you by the ankle and try to pull you down. Your identity just left you there, your all alone now and you find yourself completely unsure of who you are. You begin to question yourself, any little move you make, word you speak, choice you choose is being watchined by the thousands of people in the audience. You realize when you weren't looking somone had built a box around you enabeling you to move, breathe, or speak. Ever feel like this is your life? Let me introduce you to Fear. Fear would like to make you feel like he has the upper hand, always feeding you lies about who he thinks you are, what he thinks you look like, what he thinks your capable of, how well you will do on your next test, fear will say anything to hold you back from what you are called to do. "I've grown certain that the root of all fear is that we've been forced to deny who we are." -Frances Moore Lappe Identity. When knowing who you are, all else fails to succeed in telling you who you are. What does Identity look like? It is more than a card with a funny picture of your face on it from 3 years ago. It is not the school you attend, or your career- Identity is knowing who you belong to. 1 Corinthians 6:17- but the person who is united [joined together] to Jesus becomes one spirit with him. [he lives within you] When you find your Identity in Him, you will dance in the freedom that has always been yours, knowing now that the God who created the universe,is the God who created your eyes completely different than anyone else in the entire world, and he is the God who gave you a different finger print that cannot be matched to anyone else fingerprint, he is a creative, massive, intelligent God, and he lives in you. His spirit dwells within you. This is heavy I know, but it is real.

Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed you in the womb I knew [and] approved of you [as My chosen instrument], and before you were born I separated and set you apart, consecrating you; [and] I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.

if you don't know who you are.. let him show you

Photo by- Tim Walker

Sunday, October 31, 2010

let's be honest,
What if we use our actions toward one another and our words spoken to each other honestl
y? Our actions... "Actions are more significant than words." A quote taken from the book will and doom written by Gersham Bulkeley in 1692. Let's be real, sometimes we over look our actions. We don't think and we let our flesh lead us. Or we choose to let our desires or our momentary need/affirmation justify the truth of our action. This isn't something easily conquered, for it is a required taste.
According to to be Honest is to be Virtuous, and to withhold virtue is true beauty.

This comes to you from the honesty of my heart in hopes that God will show you the honest truth in yours...
There is nothing but truth in Him.

Candid: truthful and straight.
Although I do have a love for fashion photography, I find such a sincere beauty in candid photos,because of the truth that is captured within them.
Lets live in truth not only through our words, but let the actions that you present represent who you are, and who you are, who He is.

Behold, You desire truth in the inner being; make me therefore to know wisdom in my inmost heart. Psalms 51:6

Friday, October 29, 2010


The Process...

The Process may feel long, unnecessary, or boring, but don't forget the importance of the journey. Each part of the Process is VITAL. So soak in the richness of your growth and you will discover the beauty that is entwined within every moment.
-The butterfly endures what is called
Any complete change in character, circumstances, etc.

the resultant form.
a profound change in form from one stage to the next
Many plans are in a man's mind, but it is the Lord's purpose for him that will stand. Proverbs 19:21
Now to Him Who, by (in consequence of) the [action of His] power that is at work within us, is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly, far over and above all that we [dare] ask or think [infinitely beyond our highest prayers, desires, thoughts, hopes, or dreams]. Ephesians 3:20
Where there is no counsel, purposes are frustrated, but with many counselors they are accomplished Proverbs 15:22

The Process is a combination of beautiful moments

One of the most inspirational photographers of all time- Tim Walker.

Thursday, October 28, 2010


To act in one accordance. Abide
- Lately my heart has been in what feels like cement. I've never had to hard of a time feeling connected with God (that's not entirely true) but more than ever I've been feeling like I have to try with him more than before, like it's all up to me to find him, as if I'm learning all over again who he is and what he's all about on my own... which inspired me to write these words in my Journal: -I know you're near, but you feel so far away from me. What if your presence was so tangible I could feel your touch. Can I ever Get to that place with you. I just feel overwhelmed at how big you are, like my reach is to short. What are you thinking about me? What would you like from me? How can I be close with you, I feel like I'm doing it all wrong. I'm going to follow your words and take your advice which is to just spend time with you. Slowly I will become close to you and understand you and know you. Show yourself to me.

As easy as it is to feel far away from him, I think I am begining to find it is just as easy to ABIDE in him.
abide by,
to act in accord with.
to submit to; agree to: to abide by the court's decision.
to remain steadfast or faithful to continue.

Photo by : Rosie Hardy. Very inspiring Photography, check it out.


The action of “invoking” is usually more direct and active. It originally involved calling upon or summoning up a god or spirit. An invocation calls upon whatever is invoked to do something or serve a function. “Invoke” now can also be used to mean “to appeal to, to cite”

to cause, call forth, or bring about, to declare to be binding or in effect, to call for with earnest desire.

Dear Reader,
God spoke this word to me about a year ago, not knowing what it meant or who it had to do with. I felt motivated to start a blog and title it Invoke. As I searched the definition of Invoke, still trying to make sense of what it means, something clicked within me, We are called called by him with earnest desire...
we are his Invoke.

I hope to use this blog to inspire you weekly by speaking from the depths of my heart. (this blog thing is new to me) so be patient with me as I figure it all out.
I will share with you the vulnerability of my heart through photos, music, art, and stlye in hopes of awakening something within yours.
-Love Leah
arnest desire.

Dear Reader,
God spoke this word to me about a year ago, not knowing what it meant or who it had to do with. I felt motivated to start a blog and title it Invoke. As I searched the definition of Invoke, still trying to make sense of what it means, something clicked within me, We are called called by him with earnest desire...
we are his Invoke.

I hope to use this blog to inspire you weekly by speaking from the depths of my heart. (this blog thing is new to me) so be patient with me as I figure it all out.
I will share with you the vulnerability of my heart in hopes of awakening something within yours.
-Love Leah