Friday, November 18, 2011


Redefine your Sight...

to fix or lay down Definitely.


How far can you let yourself get without a map and light guiding you through the trail in the night.
Vulnerbility comes when full trust exceeds all fear. When this trust is thriving in your relationship with him, you are able to lightly give over the deepest most precious places of your heart:Your Identity, and Your IDea of where You see yourself going. It is true that the word says ”A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” -Psalms 16:9
I have found myself defining my own life. Making certain of who I am to be, and where I am to take myself. But the closer I get to him the more I realize My life is not mine. I will plan, but it's time to Lay down everything I think belongs to me for the sake of the one who knows me best.
There's more freedom in the unknown then in the known.

Saturday, September 17, 2011


Align: To adjust; or Improve
Dream: Something much desired.

I've had this one state of mind for awhile, Of this Idea who I aspired to be. The dream job, perfect career. But Slowly, i've let myself really discover who I was. I've talked about dreams a lot, and always letting yourself pursue them to the fullest... But sometimes those dreams change, and when they do, they seem to be better than the ones you started with. They take you by surprise, They spin you around & around, until you find yourself miles off the ground. I like to think that my heart, the heart which was instilled in me from the moment I was formed, is the same heart which is leading me where I was truly made to be, in it's right time, in it's right place. I am lead by the Holy spirit who abides in me. And in saying this, I am not afraid of letting loose old dreams for new ones to emerge to their full potential.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Caught up in a Dream

I dreamt myself into reality. My hard work payed off andI found myself in the place I couldn't stop dreaming about. But what happens when your dream is everything you believed, but you've lost sight of how you got there? I found myself swimming in waters too deep, because a lack of acknowledgment. Although I am highly in need, I am unable to acknowledge that, until I have found myself completely hopeless and useless without the one who got me to my dream in the first place. When your dream comes true it is easier to abide in the him who got you that position, then to strive to do it all on your own. You weren't made to be detached.

Thursday, July 21, 2011


As I search the Dictionary to find words that would best describe my expression of solitude, I come across the unforbidden word "single". This word has caused me to fear the quality of who I am several times after questioning myself on the topic. Then I ask myself " Why is it so abnormal for people to not be in a relationship?" - but I have found something beautiful in the singleness of my life. In this uninhabited life I have found one to inhabit. In my quietness and solitude I have found the most movement. I've found this "lonely" state as far from that as possible. I've never felt so powerful and alive than now. Don't misread this blog- because I cannot wait for the moment I get to walk my life out nextto the guy who is all mine, but God knows the time. There's much to do- so don't waste the Solitude he's giving you with day dreams of where you want to be, he knows you more than you CAN see.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Like a child...

When was the moment in which we stopped thinking as a child, where we stopped seeing things like a child. Was there a day in which we decided to take off our goggles of imagination and view the world with the naked eye. Don't you wish you could re-live thinking you could fly, or touch the sky. Although we might not have known the meaning, Belief was what we lived by when we were children. It was is our blood and soul. Everything we did came from this fountain of imagination that bubbled up inside spilling out and overflowing. Our imagination gave us the freedom to dream and explore without the fear of anyone taking it away. Our imagination guided us to the door of opportunity. Fall back into your treasure chest full of the imagination you once knew, to remind yourself of the place in which you once grew.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

It's in the seeking when you find who you are. A career can't define you, but only limit you're possibilities of all that's been planted inside of you. I've been sailing on this ship through a reckless storm, starving my self of rest, seeking for the answers of the future that awaits me... As if a career is the answer to all my questions. I am numb and feel stuck, trying to grip on to anything
just to feel a peace about my life. A thousand possibilities rush through my mind...and I am getting tired of trying, tired of controlling, and tired of having to know "what I'm going to do after school" I'm tired. So this is me giving up, giving it up to my friend who knows me all to well. He can have it all, every idea i've created my life to be. BUT, in return he will give me his peace and PERFECT will... and that's fine with me. now I can rest peacefully...

Monday, May 23, 2011


Love isn't to be taken lightly.
Love is a movement, a position of the heart towards another.
Love is trust.
Love is truth.
Love is to believe the best in someone and see the b
est through all things.
Love can break a heart of stone.
Love can build back a broken city.
Love brings together.
Love can refresh the dead and revive the lost.
Love isn't always easy.
Love isn't a Word.
Love without ceasing even if love isn't returned.

These words withhold the true meaning of Love:
- I Cor. 13:4-8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does notenvy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

The Restoration

Through experience, I have come to realize that in order for Restoration to occur, Unforgiveness must be terminated, and forgiveness must thrive.

In order for something to be Restored into it's original condition, you must give it the freedom to do so.
"The freedom to do so" = ability to Surrender.

Imagine a Wild horse who was born to be free, but is now tied down, fenced in, and restrained. The horse would have no way of being released unless it's owner came to him, untied his knot, and broke down the gates. He would need to trust his owner - to be open to allow him to set him free.

I encourage you to Surrender- Let Him untie your knot, break down the fence, and let The Restoration occur. Until then, you will remain a Wild horse who is compromising the fact that you are being restrained from the freedom which
you were born to live in.

Photo by-David Sims

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Your Idea's

Don't fall for an impression without further examination.
Your hope in this false facade will leave you in a fruitless achievement.
An idea is but a concept of a mental
How dissatisfying it is to fall for the idea, when in place you could have the certainty of falling for the authenticity in something

Don't be deceived b
y the counterfeit...

Monday, April 18, 2011


To be honest takes much Vulnerability and trust.
I think one of the most Beautiful and Solid qualities is to be open with who and where you are in life, and to not be restricted in sharing that place.
This takes Courage[strength in the face of pain]
and Security [the state of being free].
When you lack the courage needed to be Secure,
you can find yourself closing inward, without a way of communicating.
You will find yourself confined. This will not only effect you, but the ones who remain closest to you. This place can only last so long before somethings got to give.
If you are able to find the Beauty in your Vulnerability,
you will begin to see the lives beside you Liberated as well as your own.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Leap Further...

Jump or spring a long way, to a great height, or with great force.

Apply this word to your life, to your passions, to your hopes.
Know that you have your plans, and your dreams
but Trust that his vision is much bigger than your own.
Don't control your situation, but Let it Go and relax knowing he's had You in mind all along.
Opportunities may fail me, Connections may disconnect, but my God is always there.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Test of Strength

The stretch is never an easy place to be. Here is the place where you are offered two choices. The choice to let go and finish what you begun, or the choice to check out and leave the challenge that is facing you. I have had the privilege over the past few days to work with girls who are facing this very issue everyday, who are pushing through there pain and biggest fears to a promise much bigger than themselves. It is in this place where your freedom can be harmful to yourselves, a place where he is letting you decide where you want to go. This is the place where you humble your heart in your lowest of lows, and admit your weakness which is your blindfold from freedom. The test of strength will kick in. It is in this place when you find yourself laying in the bottom of the dark pit naked and cold with nothing else to hold onto but him. That is where you find your release. Nothing else will satisfy Nothing else will please your hungry heart. Nothing else will sustain you. Nothing else will bring you to a place of peace. Ive tried. But nothing is like my God. I want to encourge your pursuit of freedom, I want you to find a release in your weakness knowing he is making you strong. This is your test of strength, to surrender in this place.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

pinned up.

I feel I'm most inspired to write in times I'm striving to understand an issue I don't feel like facing...
in saying that, We must not find our self-worth in what we do for others, or in gaining the approval in which others see us.
You will quickly find yourself depleted and withered.
We should find our confidence in the fact that we know God sees us, and at the end of the day he is where we should find the place in which we hold ourselves.
I want so badly for people to see my heart, but Ive been looking to the wrong source for my Justice.
[Answer me when I call to you,
O God who declares me innocent.
Free me from my troubles.
Have mercy on me and hear my prayer] psalm 4:1
...[I am the expression of the life of Christ because he is my life] Col 3:4
If I am his very own expression, how do I have time to question who I am, or crave the approval of another.
In facing finding myself, I refuse to loose myself in others along the way.
True Identity= Individuality. Individuality is not being afraid to question everything you believe in, and then take ownership in that. Think for yourself, don't let others write your formula to life.


Thursday, February 17, 2011

All Packed.

It seems that every time I get a glance the light turns off and I have no chance.
It takes vulnerability to continually put hope in something you are not promised.
A dream which has sucked me dry, but I swallow patience to keep it growing.
Nothing ensured, but I still keep conceiving.
I'll keep walking with your hands over my eyes.
and I'll keep dreaming, although may dreams may be disguised.

You take me by surprise, each and every time.
I fear I will loose my strength in the seeking.
So let me sit awhile so I can find the courage to loose it within you.
All packed with out an idea as to where I'm headed.

- Your dear friend,

Monday, January 31, 2011

My Motive.

My Motive-

Life has been tossing me aside with it's heavy winds and rain so cold it makes my bones feel like ice. My alarm attempts to wake me up at 7a.m. but I'll snooze till 8, and when I do finally wake I peel my To-Do list off my forehead to see what the day consists of. Brush my teeth,fix my fro...then I'm out the door. Meeting, meeting, another meeting, paper, babysit, coffee break, class, read this, read that, learn how to do this, learn how to do that, it never ends.
I quite often ask myself why?
It's not that I enjoy stretching myself till I'm as thin as a fat free Milano cookie. I desire to do the things of my heart and to get there I believe I must develop my character first. I don't think I knew what time management was before college. I don't believe my integrity had truly been tested until last year when I cheated on my first test and I had to confess my mistake before my teacher.
I don't think I would be the person I'm becoming without my motive.
My Motive- To live the life he has set out for me, and to take on the responsibility of the calling on my life. It doesn't happen over night...

Friday, January 7, 2011

The Island

I found myself on The Island with no map to get back.
I didn't know how or why I was there. I searched desperately to find a way off but noting looked promising... so I built myself a shelter on The Island.

Another week went by and I was still striving for a way out...
now my shelter had become my home.

I accepted my presence on The Island and began to learn.

I began to see The Island no longer as a place to escape, but a place of escape.
I saw The Island and the goodness within it.

I ate the fruit within The Island which kept me alive and well.
I became acquainted with the people who taught me more about The Island than I could see.

The people showed me the way they lived and th
e struggles which had brought them to where they had now stood, and I began to see the Beauty emerge from within them.
...The Island became apart of me.
I had tried with everything in me to leave, to avoid something I wasn't comfortable with, but it turned into something I never saw coming. Something that challenged me, and I began to see just what he had planned out for me.