My mind became numb,
and the sensation of blood draining from my body would begin.
Like gravity in rage, stripped the pulse from my heart.
My body froze and the pain of loosing you would strike me again.

I am...
More free than I allow myself to be.
I box myself in, and cover my mouth.
Never to let the expression out.
I am alive!
But inside I hide.
Afraid of the critics and all the loud sounds.
Within me there is a well, one that overflows into rivers and swells.
I am me
and possibly
one day I will let everyone see

I need silence

I need the darkness of the night 

I need absolutely nothing 

I need rest

I need truth

I need to confront the unspoken 

I need to take it all in 

    to breathe it all out 

I need to let you flow through my fingers 

     and into my past 

I needed forgiveness from you

And still do

I don't need you 

I don't want you

Even if I had you 

your existence would crumble into ash 

Your facade would be revealed 

And there you would stand 

On my stage

Faceless 

Nameless 

Nothing to me