The pressure of change.

    

      It is quite hilarious when, you start a new season expecting it to go a specific way. The way in which YOU planned it to go. Then the next moment, you realize your uncomfortable, and you want things to be easy again.

This is where the Pressure of change is staring blankly into your face, asking whether or not your ready for the ride.

Change isn't easy, but from change growth occurs, and with new growth you become equipped, and when you become equipped...  

If it isn't hard, nothings moving. In your weakness he is made strong. In your weakness truth comes out, things in you are revealed that need change, that need pressure in order to get rid of. Let yourself be uncomfortable, let yourself grow, and let yourself be all you were meant to be. You could be the one responsible for holding yourself down. Get out of your way

From the fall

I've been on this straight path for so long, and as I was walking I found a mountain, but I didn't just sit at the base, I climbed, and I didn't just climb, but I stood at the top, and I looked around i saw everything I've kept myself hidden from. Not only did I see, but I jumped into all I never knew- and i spun around with him, and after wiping around in the twirl of his wind, I fell to the ground and hit the rocks. There I laid unaware of where I was or how I got there. But then I woke up, and as I looked forward I saw the path, the same path I fell from not too long before. With grace surrounding I stood to my feet, and took a step forward, in motion I found myself back where I left off, cut and bruised I still found my way back to You. And You saw me there, and there I was, even more beautiful to You than Before.

Fear Of The Dark

A few years ago while I was in college, I came home for a break. One thing I loved to do when I first got home was to take a long hot shower, most of which took place at one in the morning. I sat in the shower, lights off, pitched black. I sat not only soaking in the heat, but also soaking in Gods presence. I opened my eyes to see, that I couldn't see anything. Not even the hand in front of my face was visible. I felt God ask me if this was the life I would be willing to live, A life within the darkness. By this I don't mean a world full of sin and darkness. The meaning was, Am I willing to live a life walking completely blind with my one and only direction coming from Christ. Surrounded by darkness there is nothing to see but only to trust the one who leads me. I thought to myself in the comfort of my home, and warm shower, of course I will. Yes. It is not until now where that question has really taken root and grown. That question is being answered everyday when I face it. My character, my dreams, all my hopes of becoming everything I hope to become, my reality, is questioned daily. Will I let you lead me through the darkness. I can't see what's in front of me, but I must trust it's good. When you start to question yourself, your circumstances, your value, your position, Trust God knows what he's doing. You belong to him, your his. Don't doubt, but let yourself be lead through the darkness without fear.

Photo by: Tim Walker.

Journey through the Dark

I will just start by saying; it is not easy following God. To completely rely on someone you can't see or touch can be a little scary, especially when you find yourself moving with two bags to the biggest city in the US. The thing is, I would rather be doing what I think he's asking of me then question myself and become complacent. Although I have only been in New York for two weeks, I have never had to trust God more in my life. It feels as if he's only giving me a day at a time. Each day he takes me a step closer, if I choose to follow him. What if the life he has planned for me is a life where I don't know what to expect each day I live. My life and everything I do would have to acknowledge him first. The I think... Am I ok with living in the dark and walking blind, having security only in him, finding hope and opportunity completely in him? 

And I decided, yes I am ok with that, or else there is no way I would ever be doing what I'm doing now. 

So I want to encourage, and challenge you to: take a step into the dark, into not knowing what to expect, and trust God with those dreams and desires he is calling you to. The matter is, life is short, and you are here for a bigger picture. You are but a stroke of paint in his big portrait. So let loose and follow him.

This is a photo from the music Video White Owl by Josh Garrels, I would encourage you to watch it.

O the places you'll go!

IT is probably one of the craziest feelings, what I am experiencing at this moment in my life. To not have any idea of where my head will peacefully fall asleep in the next few months is not the most comforting feeling. To be in a place of being uncomfortable is better than a place of being complacent. To be uncomfortable is where you must trust. You look around to see you have nothing, absolutely nothing. None of your little teddy bears or warm blankets are there next to you to keep you warm. You are all alone, and all you have to hold onto is the one who knows the most. To look ahead and see a blank canvas is so terrifying! I have no plans, no expectations.. I mean maybe a few, but nothing! This year.. I can honestly tell you I have no clue what’s to come. Instead of completely being paralyzed with fear, I might as well believe that he has himself wrapped around me, not letting me fall and will continue to guide me so sweetly just like he always has. I promise you, no matter how scared I am of not knowing, I promise you I will have a beautiful story to tell about what’s to come. No matter how hard it gets, or brave I will learn to be, deep down in me I know he’s got my back, not only that but he’s placed lanterns before all the steps I walk, he's already unlocked the doors that will opened, and he's unleashed the places in my heart for this time to come. Wake up and see the places you will go...

-Leah

Redefine

Redefine your Sight...

ReDefine= to fix or lay down Definitely.

DeFinitely=Certain.

How far can you let yourself get without a map and light guiding you through the trail in the night.

Vulnerbility comes when full trust exceeds all fear. When this trust is thriving in your relationship with him, you are able to lightly give over the deepest most precious places of your heart:Your Identity, and Your IDea of where You see yourself going. It is true that the word says ”A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” -Psalms 16:9

I have found myself defining my own life. Making certain of who I am to be, and where I am to take myself. But the closer I get to him the more I realize My life is not mine. I will plan, but it's time to Lay down everything I think belongs to me for the sake of the one who knows me best.

There's more freedom in the unknown then in the known.

Realigning.

Align: To adjust; or Improve

Dream: Something much desired.

I've had this one state of mind for awhile, Of this Idea who I aspired to be. The dream job, perfect career. But Slowly, i've let myself really discover who I was. I've talked about dreams a lot, and always letting yourself pursue them to the fullest... But sometimes those dreams change, and when they do, they seem to be better than the ones you started with. They take you by surprise, They spin you around & around, until you find yourself miles off the ground. I like to think that my heart, the heart which was instilled in me from the moment I was formed, is the same heart which is leading me where I was truly made to be, in it's right time, in it's right place. I am lead by the Holy spirit who abides in me. And in saying this, I am not afraid of letting loose old dreams for new ones to emerge to their full potential.

-Leah