O the places you'll go!

IT is probably one of the craziest feelings, what I am experiencing at this moment in my life. To not have any idea of where my head will peacefully fall asleep in the next few months is not the most comforting feeling. To be in a place of being uncomfortable is better than a place of being complacent. To be uncomfortable is where you must trust. You look around to see you have nothing, absolutely nothing. None of your little teddy bears or warm blankets are there next to you to keep you warm. You are all alone, and all you have to hold onto is the one who knows the most. To look ahead and see a blank canvas is so terrifying! I have no plans, no expectations.. I mean maybe a few, but nothing! This year.. I can honestly tell you I have no clue what’s to come. Instead of completely being paralyzed with fear, I might as well believe that he has himself wrapped around me, not letting me fall and will continue to guide me so sweetly just like he always has. I promise you, no matter how scared I am of not knowing, I promise you I will have a beautiful story to tell about what’s to come. No matter how hard it gets, or brave I will learn to be, deep down in me I know he’s got my back, not only that but he’s placed lanterns before all the steps I walk, he's already unlocked the doors that will opened, and he's unleashed the places in my heart for this time to come. Wake up and see the places you will go...

-Leah

Redefine

Redefine your Sight...

ReDefine= to fix or lay down Definitely.

DeFinitely=Certain.

How far can you let yourself get without a map and light guiding you through the trail in the night.

Vulnerbility comes when full trust exceeds all fear. When this trust is thriving in your relationship with him, you are able to lightly give over the deepest most precious places of your heart:Your Identity, and Your IDea of where You see yourself going. It is true that the word says ”A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” -Psalms 16:9

I have found myself defining my own life. Making certain of who I am to be, and where I am to take myself. But the closer I get to him the more I realize My life is not mine. I will plan, but it's time to Lay down everything I think belongs to me for the sake of the one who knows me best.

There's more freedom in the unknown then in the known.

Realigning.

Align: To adjust; or Improve

Dream: Something much desired.

I've had this one state of mind for awhile, Of this Idea who I aspired to be. The dream job, perfect career. But Slowly, i've let myself really discover who I was. I've talked about dreams a lot, and always letting yourself pursue them to the fullest... But sometimes those dreams change, and when they do, they seem to be better than the ones you started with. They take you by surprise, They spin you around & around, until you find yourself miles off the ground. I like to think that my heart, the heart which was instilled in me from the moment I was formed, is the same heart which is leading me where I was truly made to be, in it's right time, in it's right place. I am lead by the Holy spirit who abides in me. And in saying this, I am not afraid of letting loose old dreams for new ones to emerge to their full potential.

-Leah

Caught up in a Dream

I dreamt myself into reality. My hard work payed off andI found myself in the place I couldn't stop dreaming about. But what happens when your dream is everything you believed, but you've lost sight of how you got there? I found myself swimming in waters too deep, because a lack of acknowledgment. Although I am highly in need, I am unable to acknowledge that, until I have found myself completely hopeless and useless without the one who got me to my dream in the first place. When your dream comes true it is easier to abide in the him who got you that position, then to strive to do it all on your own. You weren't made to be detached.

Solitude

As I search the Dictionary to find words that would best describe my expression of solitude, I come across the unforbidden word "single". This word has caused me to fear the quality of who I am several times after questioning myself on the topic. Then I ask myself " Why is it so abnormal for people to not be in a relationship?" - but I have found something beautiful in the singleness of my life. In this uninhabited life I have found one to inhabit. In my quietness and solitude I have found the most movement. I've found this "lonely" state as far from that as possible. I've never felt so powerful and alive than now. Don't misread this blog- because I cannot wait for the moment I get to walk my life out nextto the guy who is all mine, but God knows the time. There's much to do- so don't waste the Solitude he's giving you with day dreams of where you want to be, he knows you more than you CAN see.

Like a child...

When was the moment in which we stopped thinking as a child, where we stopped seeing things like a child. Was there a day in which we decided to take off our goggles of imagination and view the world with the naked eye. Don't you wish you could re-live thinking you could fly, or touch the sky. Although we might not have known the meaning, Belief was what we lived by when we were children. It was is our blood and soul. Everything we did came from this fountain of imagination that bubbled up inside spilling out and overflowing. Our imagination gave us the freedom to dream and explore without the fear of anyone taking it away. Our imagination guided us to the door of opportunity. Fall back into your treasure chest full of the imagination you once knew, to remind yourself of the place in which you once grew.

It's in the seeking when you find who you are. A career can't define you, but only limit you're possibilities of all that's been planted inside of you. I've been sailing on this ship through a reckless storm, starving my self of rest, seeking for the answers of the future that awaits me... As if a career is the answer to all my questions. I am numb and feel stuck, trying to grip on to anything

just to feel a peace about my life. A thousand possibilities rush through my mind...and I am getting tired of trying, tired of controlling, and tired of having to know "what I'm going to do after school" I'm tired. So this is me giving up, giving it up to my friend who knows me all to well. He can have it all, every idea i've created my life to be. BUT, in return he will give me his peace and PERFECT will... and that's fine with me. now I can rest peacefully...